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Recently, i am going through a lot ( yeah, it does seem a 'lot' ) . I still cant figure out what struck me, but logic says that all the illogical things out their in world are making things messy for me. So, when i was reveling in the high of my puff, i came up with this piece, or to put it more blatantly 'truth' . People say, we need food, air and water to survive but i will surely die without books, music and cigarettes.

This world is such a big lie. All that people need is, is a piece of gossip, where they can laugh at the expense of others. Shit! Its not even true. All they do is, since they cant be happy, they make sure that even others fail in their pursuit of happiness. And from the fear of this society, we forget our true self. We are just feeding in to their jealousy, hatred. And most of us don't understand this. On the way, we forget what we truely desire. We keep doing things to gain the approval of this 'society', this bunch of gossipers. And till the time we realize this, life becomes all too difficult to live. And again we say, its all too late to correct the things.
Why cant you conjure up the courage to make your lives beautiful? Why do you accept this misery? What more do you fear to lose when you have lost it all- when you have lost your conscience, your courage, your true 'self'. This is your life and you have to make it beautiful.
God, up there, would be surely regretting that he tried to make humans out of us. We would have been better of as animals. This 'herd mentality' is doing more harm than all the voilence put together, thats happening in the world right now. Atleast you die in a second when you are hit by a bullet, rather than dying for years and years in your so called 'life'. I am just no one to ask you to fight for your happiness. But, if you get used to compromises, you'll miss the beauty of breathing, of heart beating, and most importantly ' of living'.
Its your own, individual life. Dont let others to feed on to this life, like a parasite. Or else, you'll end up blaming the destiny for the decay you are witnessing. Choice is yours. WHETHER YOU WANT TO LIVE YOUR LIFE OR JUST LIVE OUT YOUR LIFE........

Rise!!!!

Seems as if i am being pushed into an exile. Really. Totally secluded from the whole world. As if earth's being dragged from under my feet. I feel scared. No, i am scared. Damn scared. This is the only thing i fear. Forced loneliness. As if i am trapped in a dark room, left to die. Suffocating in that stale air. Being held by chains. No, i want to be free. I cant stay here. As if someone is trying to drown me. I need strength and I NEED MYSELF. Yes, i need myself. I want to think about myself. I want to live. Live for myself. Just me. I want to be myself. I just cant flow with the flow. Either i will change the flow or move out of that comfort. I am not a pebble. I will show the whole world that you achieve all you desire. And you desire all you dream. Dream. Dream. Hope. Light. Chance. Take a chance. For opportunity doesn't come on its own. You need to call it. Yes. Coz you are not the only one. Coz you are not the only one blessed. Move out. Dare. Dare to dream. For hopes shattered will make you dream more. Rise from the ashes b'coz you cannot go down further. Believe your heart and you will burn out in your dreams. Believe your brain and you will reach nowhere.

Just put your right hand across your chest and you wont need any other motivation.

Life's gonna get to you if you let it escape your grasp. Give out your heart. For, you wouldnt ever regret, only if i had given more. Just give all your soul. For, you are left with none to regret.

Life is what you make with the breathes you have. And you are, what life fails to make out of you.

Rise. Dare. Hope. Dream. Desire. Go. And get it. World is yours if you rise!!!

....., but memories!

This moment, when i think
of you and all the memories
and the moments of eternity,
All those when i was with you...
And today when i want to go back into them
Live the past again or infuse life in my present
Where death beckons me every moment...
For life is no life without you,
For once, i am being forced to live with memories
For once, i am feeling the hurt of being away,
For once, i am realising that love is not easy,
For once, for once.....
I want to live, live with you,
for breathing is no life,
for you are my life!!!

All the love that is within me,
longing to enter inside you,
longing to ignite a flame,
longing to be in your heart.
This wait seems to be eternal,
and darkness and gloom pervading my life.
Just hoping, soon.......
A ray of star will pierce the sky,
To reach a heart, erupted from a heart,
For, heart is where my life is
For, heart is where you are......
For, heart is where you are.........

Me, A Tear!!!

I don’t know from where to start,

Should I reveal out my heart???

I am just there at the brink of my home,

Please don’t shut your eyes,,, please don’t….

For I would be left to die as an orphan, all alone…

I have died before, I would again die for you!!!!

Still you never realize that I am your love,, so true…

I would again be a martyr,

I would again make you smile,

I would again kiss your cheeks,

I would again love your lips,

To make you feel divinely better…..

Coz even I want to rest in peace..

Coz there is no better place than your lips,

Where my breathe wants to live…

Its no more mine!!!!!!!

Now, since I am no more,

Nothing would look blurred,

Your eyes would see a beauty,

Divinity waiting to embrace you,

In its cozy arms where you would be,

With no clouds even in horizons,

No more tears would rain,

NOR WOULD THERE BE A RAINBOW !!!!!

Never ever you would, so dearly,

Love the sweet taste of joy,

Never ever you would know,

What true love is….

Never ever you would find,

A beauty so beautiful….

Never ever you would have,

ME AGAIN, SWEETHEART, it ain’t true ….

Don’t let me die, please don’t…

I want to live in those beautiful eyes,

Don’t let me go, please don’t..

For no one would ever love you more…

For I have loved you always,

For I would love you always…..

I would be incarnated again,

I would again live in your eyes,

For I would live in you,

For I would die for you!!!!!

ALMOST A REALITY.....

It all begins with a dream, dream to love and being loved. A dream where I can see myself holding you and being held by you. Kissing you and being kissed by you. Everything seems so divine and so unbelievably true. Yes, your perfume filling the whole of my world. Where nothing else seems to be happening and nothing else is so real. Or is it?? I don’t know what is an illusion? What I can see or what I want to see? Or what I cannot see?
I then ask myself should I think about what I have or should I have everything that I think of???
You run through my mind, my veins, and breathes. Nothing else my mind accepts. Or to put it in a better way, nothing else my heart allows my mind to accept. So I know what I think and what I want to have.
And all I have is…… Your love… You are my fortune. But I fear to think about you. He loves to play games. And I don’t want our love to be a pawn in the game of queens. But why should I fear???
When something is so true, even He has to kneel down in front of our love. Yeah, heart is so true man! You think and you are gone. You yearn for logic and you let go your love. Heart has to win someday over our devil brains. Logic limits the love which contradicts an axiom- Love has no borders.. And its so true.
If only it had, it wouldn’t have been so divine. What we call God, is nothing but our love for Faith. Faith in someone so good, who would overpower all evil. Someone who would stand by us when we are caught in a doomsday. And its nothing but a Faith. An immense faith in someone, who we think, would never betray us. So all it comes down to one simple question?
Can’t we love a human soul so much that we start to pray that divine soul? Is it so necessary to pray God written in the books if I don’t believe in them? Cant someone be more important than God?